Porque con el pasar del tiempo comenzamos a ver mucho más
que sonrisas. Las máscaras comienzan a caer y podemos ver realidades
diferentes, verdaderas intenciones. Podemos ver que entre el blanco y el negro
hay escala de grises. Una vez escuche la frase "Solo lastimamos a quienes
de verdad amamos" y hoy entiendo que es verdad. Entiendo que el amor es
mucho más que sonrisas, el amor es gritos y arañazos también. Es patalear,
gritar y odiar. Es sentir un ardor en el pecho que nos haga llorar de felicidad
con extrema facilidad como de rabia y dolor en un instante. Amor es mil
sensaciones en una. Amor es mezcla de sentimientos. Amor es egoísmo y
estupidez. Es equivocarse, pelear y enmendar. Yo no quiero pelear, es tan
difícil de entender? Quiero enmendar y amar. Llorar de felicidad y no por
rabia. Quiero ser feliz. Quiero que el amor sea la razón de mi sonrisa y no mis
lágrimas. Quiero que caiga mi mascara también, que se noten mis verdaderas
intenciones y que él decida quedarse igual.
Monday, August 24, 2015
Wednesday, August 5, 2015
Memories
Isn't funny how memories are? How from out of nowhere
moments can be triggered by simple movements, odors, sounds or feelings? This
came right onto my mind tonight once I sprayed his perfume onto my pillow cause
I was desperately missing him and what amazes me is how this simple essence
woke up a million moments that were trapped and hidden inside my mind. A kiss,
a smile, a hug, a look, his hand holding mine, his hands traveling across my
hair and his smile once I fell asleep. Simple things that meant so little back
then mean so much right now. I remember walking by his side in the city of
lights and smiling cause I thought I was dreaming, watching the sunrise and
smiling cause he was there that Christmas morning, saying goodbye for the first
time and crying cause I was so scared that would be our last kiss. All those
times, all those moments. Now we are repeating them within time, polishing the
memories and smiling harder as it goes. Cherishing the moment and enjoying as
it comes. These are the memories that keep me going, these are the moments I
hold on until we meet again. Without them what would we be? What would we have
to hold onto? Nothing. Just empty letters with empty words of an emotion we are
supposed to call love. Let me tell you what I'll do. I'll hold onto these
moments until the next time we meet. In order, to create more memories and
create an eternal loop of neverending trusting smiles and honest kisses without
empty words but with actions, one that never ends. One that keeps me strong,
until he comes back and takes me somewhere we can together finally call it
home.
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